Chicago and College and Laptops (Oh my!)

July 7, 2009

Hey all. So for once, I’m really excited about life. Today is July 7th – almost July 8th. College classes start August 25th. Annnd … I’m hoping to go on a trip to Chicago with a special someone in September to see a Regina Spektor concert! And much more of course … I really need to exercise more. That was random. But it’s very true. I have tingling in my legs. They need to run or bike or something.

Anyway: College. There’s not a lot to say except I finished my summer math class … with a C.  😦  Very, very, very sad day. However, it is entirely and completely my fault. I was just lazy. Need I say more?

Laptops: I want this one. The cheap version on the left. My parents, who promised they would buy me a laptop for my graduation, literally can’t afford one right now, so I’m probably going to get their approval, pay for it myself, and hope they pay me back sometime. I can’t decide if I want to get an obnoxious color or just to leave it black. Thoughts?

Also in the realm of technology: I used to text using the Abc method. I am now slowly shifting to T9Word. It’s kind of weird and annoying at first, but I’m managing.

Okay … now Chicago! Or should I talk about college and careers first? No. Chicago. Omg, I’m so excited. I’ve been to Chicago at least three times before in my life but never for longer than two days. So naturally, there’s a lot I’ve been wishing I could see. Places I have been include the Magnificent Mile, Navy Pier, the Shedd Aquarium – all the tourist traps. Also, I’ve been to the Chicago Symphony Orchestra Hall and to this one pizza place in Chinatown whose name I cannot remember for the life of me. So where do I want to go … well, I’d really like to go to Boystown (the gay district) except one problem. Both me and my friend are just under 21. I’m sure though, if we look, there are still a  few things to do. Pride weekend was apparently just a week ago – June 28th. Drat. Oh well. But about Regina Spektor … Iiii’m not a huge fan, mainly because I only know 1 1/2 of her songs. But I’m hoping I can cultivate a love, or at least a like, of her so that I can appreciate the concert. It’s pretty much the driving force getting my friend to come with.

Annnnd speaking of college and Chicago … my same-age cousin is going to Concordia University, Chicago! I’m so excited for her. She deserves it – she has a very strong spiritual background and moreover, has great musical talent, so I’m not surprised she was admitted. Also, I have one of those friends that you meet once in real life, add to Facebook, and then don’t see again for a really long time, if ever. This one is named Steph. However, I’ve kept in touch with, she is super awesome, and right now she is living in the windy city, so I’m hoping to say “Hello!”

The other big component of this is money. I have spent way too much of it since getting my first job in August 2008. Therefore, I have committed to saving $100/week out of my paycheck which can only be spent on education purposes and major purchases – important things like traveling and auto maintenance, not clothing (unfortunately). Also, I used the deposit box on the ATM to deposit my last paycheck and it WORKED. I’m proud of myself. Except now I can’t remember if I cashed the two graduation checks I got late. I would look it up but I’m using the hotel computer and it’s extremely slow.  lol … there’s this guy flirting with the girl at the desk behind me. It’s really funny. He’s cute though, omg. So anyway.

Where the heck should I go in Chicago?! The Magnificent Mile is pretty amazing. I could spend a few days there. Honestly, I think if we hit up my cousin, my friend, The Magnificent Mile, Boystown, and Chinatown, we’ll have more than a full schedule. Navy Pier is sort of fun, but not as fun as everything else.

I just can’t wait! ^_^       (>_<)

I can’t decide if we should bring our bikes. I want to have a picnic if it’s not too cold. I also want to search for second hand designer label stores in Chicago. But this computer is so $%^&ing slow … that’s not too much of a possibility. Aha! I found a map of the bike trails in Chicago online. There’s a really pretty paved off-road trail that goes along the shore of Lake Michigan. Awesome.

Holy crap. So I decided to try searching for second hand stores on this computer. I got like 57256982035720357923502203750239 results. Ok… well I have to leave for the moment but I probably will write a part 2 to this … hasta luego chiquiticas!


To Do: Wed. June 10th

June 10, 2009

Hey… I’m just figuring out what I need to do … I’m kind of bored.

See, I was going to go through my clothes and pick out the ones I don’t want anymore. The entire subdivision that I live in is having a huge mega-garage sale this Fri and Sat.  So I was hoping to sell some of my old crap. But my dad is using my room to practice some sort of presentation he’s giving that it seems he is too paranoid about giving. How bad can it be, honestly? Aside from that, I really want Gap to call me back for an interview. -crosses fingers- I think they would’ve called by now. I would stop by and ask except it’s too late now; they’re about to close and the manager wouldn’t be there anyway.

One thing I need to for sure do, and can do actually, at this very moment in time, is my math homework. I don’t need a haircut. But I think I want one. I like long hair. And I like short hair. It’s a tough decision. -shrug- And yes, I do notice that I’m totally talking about nothing but myself and being relatively boring.

So I should talk about this whale that exploded in Taiwan. But that will be another post.

I also want to get a tan. Somehow. Getting it the outdoor way would be nice but I don’t know if I’m that patient or if I’ll be outside that much. But I’d like to be. I’m not working tomorrow! If there were any parties I knew about I would go but nobody tells me about these things. And alcohol is bad for you anyway. ^_^ hahaha… awww. -sigh- Hmmmm… so. Relationships. Slash relationshit. ‘Tis been floating ’round my head for quite some time now. Idk. I could write forever about it or not at all. I think I’d prefer the latter.

UGGGHHhhhh… my hair is SO long… ok, it’s not that long. It’s been longer … and looked fabulous at the same time. But I just want it shorter for once. And I want to be hired at Gap. And I want to not be sitting here like a zombie.

So… possibilities for tomorrow:

Visit Gap.
Tan or be outside.
Get haircut.

Sounds good to me. So umm… yeah. Ooh, an also.

Sort out garage sale stuff.

Ok. I’m tired/stupid/bored/boring so I’m going to go away. Bye


April Fools? That would be me.

April 1, 2009

Hey all. It’s April 1st and though no one’s played a trick on me today … ok, actually my brother did. And it was a pretty good one for a 9-year-old too. He told me school was canceled. Considering there was an ice storm yesterday, it was rather believable. However, the weather turned out to be in the 60s today. There’s Nebraska for ya.

Anyway, I’ve been quite the fool myself lately, being tricked by myself, my thoughts, my insecurities, and my parents … (kind of). For a while, about the past week, I had convinced myself that Tyler didn’t like me. He never says good-bye to me. He occasionally says hey. I just wish he would connect more. I felt hated, betrayed. Needless to say, I was also being paranoid. I’ve known Tyler for three months at least, and have a reasonable idea of what his personality is like, though I can’t for the life of me figure out how his mind works. Ok, I sort of can. Anyway, I shouldn’t be surprised by his behavior. But I was hurt. And I think my being hurt is valid. It was ok. But over lunch today, he made it clear that we were still friends. That’s the thing though. He treats me like an aquaintence who’s slowing becoming a friend. Not a boyfriend who he’s spent two inimate and caring months with, and now, for the past month seems to have written off. I miss February. Especially February 7th. That was the day of the Kearney High debate tournament. Since it was our own tournament, we hosted the event but weren’t allowed to compete. Tyler isn’t in debate, but I knew it was gonna be a fun day of hanging out with friends and goofing off when we weren’t helping out, so I asked him to come over, please. He did, he spent the whole day doting on me, making me give him piggy back rides everywhere, which was exhausting, but I really didn’t mind at all, because he was giving me attention. We and some other debaters hung out in the auditorium while we were waiting for people to finish their rounds and for awards to start. I’m not one for kissing in front of other people, but Tyler, at the moment, seemed to be. He was lying on top of the soundboard cabinet, I was standing. Then he climbed up to the catwalk, where all the stage lights are, and told me to come up with him. We kissed and he said now he could finally say he’d made out on the catwalk. The rest of the day progressed like a dream. I didn’t want to say good-bye.

I miss him. I miss that.
His love.

(small smile) Don’t get me wrong. It’s great to be treated like a good friend. But I wish … it was more. He really is … an incredible person. I have heartache. On a different topic, I really need to write my research paper on The Old Man and the Sea. 20 pages. But, more exciting, in my opinion, that the research paper, our lovely English teacher assigned a sonnet that had to be on the topic of love, whose rough draft was due Monday. I wrote mine about feeling neglected. The actual copy is on the school computer. I’ll write what I can here, and update it when possible.

Ode to Missing Love

My love is quite the conundrum. In terms
Of my emotions Mrs. Hunnicutt
Might say that I am like a woman. But
allow me to explain. My heart, it yearns,
as she would say, “to know,” and I affirm
This. How my heart recoils when he beshuts
his loving gestures. Want I only but
To simply feel his tenderness return.

Four weeks of love are followed by four weeks
Of torpid distance. And, alas! To me,
My cat is more affectionate than he!
You are so young, my love, o how I seek
To simply please you. Now I realize pleased
You are, so do reciprocate, I plead!

There is actually quite a bit more I want to say but I do not have the opportunity now to say it. I wish to talk more about my sonnet, about my Old Man paper, about going to youth group tonight, and about the insightful and comforting conversation I had with my friend Mr. Potter yesterday. (No, not Harry.) I will say, however, that that version of the sonnet you see there is edited. While typing it, I realized the version I turned in probably was not in perfect sonnet format so I took a few minutes just now to revise my sonnet so that it is in perfect sonnet format. So, lucky you. (smile) I’ll see you all later, and finish my writing too. Lots of love, Alex


The Ides of March

March 20, 2009

Hello. So, the ides of March is the 15th. That was 5 days ago. So, it’s not really the ides of March. But anyway.

So what’s going on in my life? I enjoy work at Sun Mart for the most part. They’ve finally started giving me more than 9 hours per week. I got 23 last week (!!!) and 18 this week. I don’t think I’m getting 23 again; that was because of spring break. So anyway, my friend and co-cashier, Natalie, told me she was sick of Sun Mart yesterday, and I agreed with her.  It’s fun to work at Sun Mart, but in terms of organization and functioning properly, the whole cash register system sucks. Yesterday, we had to explain to  every person who wanted to use a debit card that they needed to run it as credit today, because the debit line wasn’t working. Because the debit cards weren’t working, EBT food stamps weren’t working either and I had to send away a man who had no other way to pay for his groceries. I apologized and told him he shouldn’t have to pay by another method, he should be able to use his stamps, but I still felt awful. He said it was OK and he’d go to Wal Mart or something, but he was obviously and rightfully frustrated. This is the type of thing Natalie doesn’t like and neither do I. Also, every single day, each cashier rings up at least 3 or 4 items that aren’t in the computer, which then proceeds to make an obnoxious beeping noise that sounds as if the world is going to end and which usually disturbs the customer. We then have to page someone to go look up the price on the shelf which may or may not prolong the time it takes for the customer to get their order out the door. Basically, it’s embarrassing. For that reason and also because of the low hours, I applied at Perkin’s. They said they’d call me back, they haven’t, and I’m semi-afraid it’s too late now. Anyway, enough complaining about having a relatively decent life, right? Aka, bitching.

So, I totally hope this greenhouse hires me. I called, dropped off my name and number, had a really, really good conversation with the owner, and am hopeful/excited. Of course, the garden season hasn’t started quite yet, but it sure starts a heck of a lot sooner here in Nebraska then it does up in Wisconsin.

There is this amazing application on Facebook called Pet Society, which is a scaled down version of Animal Crossing. Check it out.

So, school and homework. I started a new class this last term – Political Science. It’s required to graduate. … which reminds me, you need 20 hours of community service to pass the class and I’ve been planning to volunteer at Goodwill for months so I should probably stop by there sometime and get that set up. So the class is kind of cool. The teacher started the class by taking controversial issues, having the two major opinions on different sides of the room (“No middling!”) and explaining why each side feels the way it does. The only two issues we’ve done so far are abortion and legalizing pot. And, while I was trying in futile to work on my debate case last night, I ended up typing a splendid pro-choice argument. … which I think I will spruce up and post sometime, unless I forget or decide not to, which more likely than not may happen. But who knows?

It is so fxcking windy in Nebraska!

Also, our AP English class has a 20 page research paper due sometime … it would be really good if I remembered when. Mine is on The Old Man and the Sea by Ernest Hemingway, which may be the most banal book ever written. Ok, so it’s alright – the plot is neat. But his writing style is so, fxcking, dry! He uses like, the most minimal descriptions and strings out the happenings of the book so long. And the book is only 93 fxcking pages! With pictures! And speaking of the work “fxcking,” everyone needs to listen to Lewis Black’s “Red, White and Screwed.” It’s a stand-up monologue, I watched it sometime in October, you can find it on Limewire, and I assure you: IT WILL BRIGHTEN YOUR DAY. If not expand your field of knowledge. Which is awesome.

(To the tune of “We Just Got a Letter” from Blue’s Clues) I can’t wait to garden, I can’t wait to garden, I can’t wait to garden, ’cause you’re really smart!

Rah, rah, shish koom bah! My bf actually gets to go to Missouri, like he wanted to, and I’m so happy for him, and I hope he has fun. I have a difficult time with relationships. I haven’t been in a lot of them. And I’m learning that I tend to be a totally insecure mother-fxcker. Which sucks. So I’m thinking I should, you know … like, maybe change that?

My mom just told me that if I homework I “need to be doing that.” I agree. But I can’t remember if I have any homework. I have three classes that really have homework … oh shoot. AP World History. I kind of need to totally catch up ’cause I wasn’t there Thursday or Friday… I think. And then there’s English and Poli Sci. So, I’m gonna unload the dishwasher! How schmexy is that!? Text  me or something. Buh-bye.


Hello, hello!

March 18, 2009

So… wow. I’ve always wanted blogging to be this easy. And now it is. I’ve always wanted to keep having things not like this … like, to write and code my own HTML. But this is so much easier. It really is. It’s just so hard to part with my domain. I need to find some way to sew them together. Anyhoo… I’m going to get posting now that it’s EASY as PIE. ❤ Love you all!